Today feels sad. It feels like disappointment. Like hours and years of waiting for a phone call that never comes. Like hope all but diminished.
I am not sure why the heaviness of today stays, but it does. It stays in my eyes and my shoulders as I attempt to move about my home washing dishes and clothes and tidying up.
Today should not feel this way. Today should feel free. Today is a day off. Today is the day after an official promotion. Today I have caught up on some podcasts and watched some YouTube videos and tried not to stay stuck by writing this.
Today I will help with the magazine and ease myself into the life I wish to lead later. Today is for planning my garden. For catching up on stories. Today is for the future, even though the heaviness stays.